Well I did have something to write about yesterday, but my net took too long to load the site so I just gave up. Now I don't really know what to write about, I guess it doesn't matter anyway since only few people read it, lol. I don't care, I just like having somewhere to write random stuff. So now I'm listening to a song by Chris Brown titled "Say Goodbye" and well, I guess I'll make that my topic.

Basically, the song is about a him not feeling the same about the girl and about breaking up with her. He feels bad for it, but he knows he has to do it, it's kinda like 'its now or never'. And also about the unknown of what's going to happen next.

"How do you let it go, when you, you just don't know
What's on the other side of the door
When you're walking out
....
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye"

This song is so depressing and it's making me depressed. I feel so blocked right now, like emotionally. Physically, I'm okay, like I'm tired, but I'm okay. Just Emotionally, I just, don't know how I feel. I feel so many things.

Anyway, how do you know when to let go? Is it like one of those things where its like "you just know"? And how do you know that you know? Even if you decide to let go, is it easy? Because it isn't for me and I don't know what to do. In a way, I want to move on and I know I need to, but then I just don't want to because I'm scared of what's going to happen next. Because I don't know what's going to happen next.

I don't know if anyone's noticed, but someone must have, but I'm the kind of person who wants to know everything that's going to happen. I don't like being unsure, or not knowing or doing something that's unplanned.

Like I mean everything is going okay, you know? I mean the most important thing (school) is going okay, I'm not doing the best I could probably do, but I'm doing okay and I can feel myself improving especially in maths. And nobody's been stressing me out or anything, at least, not more than usual.

I don't know what to do. It's not like I don't trust anyone or anything, because there's heaps. I just can't bring myself to talk about it.

How does anyone know when time's up and that its for you to go? How do you decide? And when you do how can you carry it out?